Progress

I've been doing more yoga lately. I follow a lady from Britain who posts live workouts and twice a week she does yoga. A few times now, she's started by saying, "can you let yourself be here, in your body, away from everything else. Can you allow yourself into this space". And we move through a series of poses and stretches and I get frustrated because my body isn't strong enough or not flexible enough. Its a process and I have to keep practicing. And at the end, she comes back to what she's said at the beginning. And, depending where you stand on the idea of chakra or being blocked emotionally, take this as you will. But I often find myself crying at the end of these sessions because something has released inside me. Sometimes your body knows more than your head. I can't often pin point why I'm crying but perhaps its because my body knows something isn't quite right with the world right now in a way that my mind has yet to understand and accept. I don't know. But I keep practicing because I believe we disconnect from our bodies in unhelpful ways and coming back into ourselves is sometimes the best therapy of all.

Also. I still can't do a handstand like I promised everyone I would try to do by the end of all this isolating. BUT. I can touch my toes without feeling like my hamstrings will snap. Progress.